I haven't written here in a rather long time due to graduate school, and I sincerely apologize for that. I was just so busy finishing up my final semester and balancing that with an archival internship and my part-time job that I haven't had much time for anything else!
It's been a little over two months now since I finished my grad school coursework, and I'm officially going to be handed my degree in May. It'll be nice to officially be done with another part of my life, but now I'm in a particularly horrible limbo of not having a job yet and loans looming over me.
No regular work means no regular schedule, and in addition to that, my doubts and fears about not being able to get anything have crept in. Am I qualified? Am I competent? Is something wrong with how I interview when I do get those rare opportunities? Why don't employers want me? Does ANYONE want me?
My anxiety is naturally on the rise at the moment. I've been having panic attacks over things I don't normally have them over - yesterday I had one when trying to explain to a friend that I wouldn't be able to drive due to the hail completely icing over my car, and I'm still thrown off by that one today. I know having a library job won't solve everything, but it would go a long way towards calming me down and getting me back into a routine, something we Aspergian people thrive on.
A temp agency has my resume and I filled out and sent their form back to them yesterday, so hopefully I'll have a placement soon. In the meantime, I'm going to keep applying to every open library position in the greater NYC area and try not to lose my head.
